My husband was diagnosed two years ago with pancreatic cancer (2019). He passed away on 22/01/21. It has been a difficult two years with ups and downs along the way two infections, sepsis etc. He had two rounds of successful chemo which helped prolong his life. He was due to start a 3rd round in November, his oncologist suggested he wait,, but became ill very quickly, and never started. He never eat again after 23rd December, saying he just couldn't! Very difficult and sad Christmas for us his family. 
The week he passed was so sad due to covid, we were having to manage the care between family and friends, due to no carers being available He had a very difficult passing....I thought he would go in his sleep. He died in a lot of pain, not being able to speak and us his family holding a bucket while he threw up blood...the image will haunt me for the rest of my life! Then he was gone.....after 35 years togeather..

He died at home with his family which he wanted.....

I feel so sad without him, and miss him terribly, my life will never be the same....

Xxi