Just can't cope with the loss of my dad

I lost my dad to osphegal  cancer it spread to his liver and other organs on the 23rd of Jan.He was diagnosed in 2019 and told he would have a few months but fought on.It spread just before Christmas to his liver and other organs and they gave us a few weeks on Christmas Eve .He stayed at home where we cared for him and he deterorated drastically it was devastating to watch.We did everything for him as the support we got was poor .The night he died we had no support even though we're told if we needed anything to ring 24/7 which only did twice the 2nd being he was dying,we had to ring the paramedics who were amazing and made my dad comfortable while we were there as a family to be with him when he went.We can't have the funeral until march 4th which is shocking.I think of him all the time and feel such pain everyday I still can't believe he's gone I just don't know what to do I was with my dad everyday he didn't deserve this .

 

  • Really sorry to hear about your Dad. My Dad died of the same cancer yesterday morning. It's completely overwhelming right now and I find myself breaking down at random points of the day. We were very close as he brought me up and we were best friends as well as father and son.

    I'm finding talking to people is helping a little bit at the moment but it's times when I sit down on my own that set me off again. I looked at the last photo I took of him with my kids and it cut me in half thinking that they won't be able to see each other again. It just sucks all this doesn't it. The one person I want to talk to most is him and it just hurts.

    Have you got anyone you can speak to about it all? Maybe someone outside of the immediate family might help?

    You're not alone in your feelings right now and it's completely normal.

  • Thank you for replying I wasn't quite sure what to expect by typing it. I'm truly sorry to hear you lost your dad I can totally understand the hurt and sadness it's overwhelming .Like you I have moments of sobbing till it physically hurts .I do have people to talk to but I find hard talking as I don't like to think it's real.We are trying to organise a funeral it's it just doesn't seem right or real.I spent most days with my especially towards the end ,washing him and doing things I'd never expected to and he would probably of hated but u do it .Even though it was hard I'd do anything to be there again .

    It truly is the hardest thing I've 2 boys 9 and 3 and they were in separable from my dad and like you said it breaks you .I guess it's a journey this grief  but I miss him so much .

    Thank u for replying it means a lot .

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