My mum passed away yesterday after a fight against stage 4 small cell lung cancer (1 year and 9 months) with brain and spinal mets. We nursed her in her final days at home - as she wanted - and I spent the time I wasn't in the room with her in tears. But now she's gone, and I just can't seem to feel anything. Emotionally, I'm just numb.
I know I have a lot to concentrate on now - I'm in my early twenties, I was living with mum, and I have to sort out the cancelling accounts/phoning companies/etc side of everything, so I'm not sure if I'm trying to distract myself with all of that side before the emotional stuff hits me again, or if it's normal to just.... not feel anything. It just doesn't feel real.
