Hi, I couldnt read your post and not reply, you are a similar age to my eldest son, who is 22, and his father (my husband of 23 years) also has this awful illness. You sound like a lovely family, and you are clearly being incredibly supportive to both mum and dad. I think your mum may surprise you with strength when needed, she is a nurse and they are incredibly brave people in my experience! You will have each other too. Its such a shame that covid restrictions mean we cannot see friends or have hugs during such a difficult time. Maybe to check on your brother too, men dont deal with grief or feelings as openly as us girls, but it doesn't mean he doesn't care. For now all I can say is please take care, there are many of us here on the chats who will understand what you are going through, so dont be afraid to come back and chat. Sending you a huge hug you are a very brave young lady xxx

Hi,

Im so sorry for the situation you are all in. I lost my husband of 36 years in June and its dreadful. I too have a son and daughter who like yourself have been so supportive. Watching your love one slip away is horrendous, but you have done the right thing coming on here to talk it really does help. Its so hard but try and stay strong. Love to you all. 

Take care

Debbie xx 

 Hello I've just been reading your post so so sad I'm so sorry For you and your mum at least you have each other . I think everyone I will agree with meBut you're in safe hands everybody on this website seems to be amazing and there is so much kindness and love about i've needed everyone  on here and they have helped me out in so many ways just to talk to people Who are completely going through the same kind of thing

Hi there,

I am so so sorry to hear that your lovely daddy is going through this. I'm 32 and lost my amazing and very special dad in October. He also had oesophageal cancer with a rare complication added in. I am just so so sorry. You are just too young to be going through this :(.

I am a nurse and so is my wonderful mum. We found that when it came to looking after dad and caring for him at home that we just went into nurse mode to help us get through the heartbreak of the situation we were in.

After losing dad, my instant reaction was to protect my mum. She is lost without dad and we are just taking baby steps each day to get through. We talk about dad a lot in fact that's all we talk about but that helps us get through each day. 
 

I hope you are getting some support from district nurses and your local hospice. If you need them remember they are there. Make sure you take time to make as many memories with your dad and keep being his wonderful daughter.

Remember that if you can't be strong 100% of the time, that is ok. You are only human and this is your amazing dad that you are caring for. I cried a lot and was strong also. I felt guilty for crying but I felt it helped. 

Keep going and stay strong. Dads are so so precious and remember they are always with us.

Take care and message at anytime xx

Thankyou so much. Your lovely words brought me much comfort. We sadly lost Dad on Saturday at 5am, he was in so much pain and it was an horrific thing to watch. I hope he finds peace and happiness, I miss him more than anything. 
I have slept in bed with Mum since he left us, which has helped us both and my 21st birthday on Saturday is giving us something to look forward to. 

Thankyou again for replying, it's very comforting to know there's people out there that completely understand.

Hope you and your Mum are well, take care xxx