Hi there ... and welcome to our little chat room....

I'm so so sorry you lost your mum so young ... I lost my parents in my 30s and that was hard enough .. so my heart goes out to you ...

You know in my life, I've learned it's not those that cry the loudest that grieve the most ... I always look for the one holding things in .. I did the same, and had someone say to me, they hoped she'd take it as good when she lost her mum ... I could have knocked her out ... she had no idea how much I missed my amazing mum .. 

So don't feel bad ... it's a common thing to feel numb ... it's your head trying to protect you .... there's no right or wrong way... just go with whatever you feel ... it's o.k to cry ... it's o.k to smile ... the missing never goes but you do learn to live without them in time ... my mum went 31 years ago ... I still miss her as much today ... but I carry her in my heart... you can tuck your mum up in your heart and take her on your journey through life now ... don't listen to others ... you know how much you care ..

Sending you a vertual hug.... Chrissie x

Thank you very much Chrissie that really helps x

Thank you very much Chrissie that really helps x