I lost my wife to cancer recently and I have never felt so alone. I am experiencing all kinds of extreme emotions from grief to guilt. I really want to connect and talk to others who have been through this terrible period.
i lost my mother to cancer of unknown primary 27/11/18 I was only 18 years old. I felt so alone once this had happened as it happened so quickly and tragically. I found many ways of coping with my loss but talking about my grief to others who cooks relate to me really helped as they could understand my rollercoaster of emotions!
So nice to meet you Gabriella! I read your post and cried - no one should lose a mother so young. I am so sorry.
Yes it does help me to talk here and I don't feel I have to hold anything back. The loneliness and emptiness is an awful thing to cope with. I lost my 'rock' and it's crushing.
Do you still have the rollercoaster? Are you coping better?
I am finding ways of coping but I fear that all I am doing is putting walls and barriers up to the emotions and I feel like my emotions are numbing. They are just as raw as ever when a wall cracks.
I think the more I cry the better as I am sure it needs to come out and there is alot to come out.
It's so hard - I mean trying to get your head around it. I do that all the time and I know it doesn't help me at all - I replay all the decisions we made and the paths we took. Would another path have saved her life? It's like russian roulette this cancer thing. If we had gone another way maybe Rossella would have passed several years ago or maybe cancer free.
As to why she was taken - who knows? That's probably for Rossella to discover and something I will not find the answer to. The main comfort is in knowing that it was only her body that was taken - just her physical manifestation in this world.
I just can't understand why it is taking so long to find a cure? A worldwide coordinated effort like with Covid can surely come up with solutions. It kills more than Covid.
We have 20 years of memories together and I am the one to keep those memories alive somehow someway.
You and your children will keep your wife alive and if you really take care of yourself and the children she will be so very very happy.
I feel just the same mate and asked the same questions over in my head I'm week I've lost the one person that really loves me for being me : I will go on I have to seem a crazy but I want my life to end no one can make me happy like martyne did x
Ok mate - very bad morning for me - crying so much now I am getting headaches. Better now - couldn't survive whole day like that. Just come back from a walk.
Hi just been reading last few messages, hope you both ok.
Keep taking one day at a time its like hurdles, not easy by no means and glad you two talk daily and exchange feelings its a great way of getting through each day.
I'm ok mate I think we both have had the hardest week imaginable But we have nearly made it And to be honest I don't know how I did it just got Friday to go! Kids keep me going and they also strangling me at the same time if I never had kids would I go to her probably not she would tell me it's not my time ? My heart is empty I can't even feel her anymore ?
Went for a drive today to a place we walked - felt an urge to go and found some white feathers in the spot I was drawn to. Coincidence?
On the way back I suddenly heard a voice in my head say, 'stop!' and so I did and pulled over. I got out and walked around looking for more feathers but I got a phone call a minute later from a travel company (to do with India). The only call I received today. Coincidence?
We will get through this there has to be light at the end of the tunnel Myself and my eldest boy were just on YouTube listening to a Matt Fraser medium and everything you were saying about the other side seems amazing and it's kind of giving me a little bit of confidence x
