I lost my wife to cancer recently and I have never felt so alone. I am experiencing all kinds of extreme emotions from grief to guilt. I really want to connect and talk to others who have been through this terrible period.
i lost my mother to cancer of unknown primary 27/11/18 I was only 18 years old. I felt so alone once this had happened as it happened so quickly and tragically. I found many ways of coping with my loss but talking about my grief to others who cooks relate to me really helped as they could understand my rollercoaster of emotions!
So nice to meet you Gabriella! I read your post and cried - no one should lose a mother so young. I am so sorry.
Yes it does help me to talk here and I don't feel I have to hold anything back. The loneliness and emptiness is an awful thing to cope with. I lost my 'rock' and it's crushing.
Do you still have the rollercoaster? Are you coping better?
I am finding ways of coping but I fear that all I am doing is putting walls and barriers up to the emotions and I feel like my emotions are numbing. They are just as raw as ever when a wall cracks.
I think the more I cry the better as I am sure it needs to come out and there is alot to come out.
I'm not good I've not been eating been really sick I've got to try soup or something. My body wants to do all its normal stuff like going to the toilet there is just nothing left in me And it huy like hell! Just wish the wife was here I'm doing the same as you hiding away from her at the moment x
I understand mate ..... I've just been for a long walk but it's useless trying to get away from it - it creeps up on you. Life is utterly meaningless without her. I wish I had spent every second with her - precious seconds. Will never be the same. I am recreating Rossella everywhere.
I think I have to keep letting the grief out - can't keep looking away anymore. We have to feel our way through this until we find our own answers.
Just got to stop beating myself up - i just feel so unworthy and feel guilty to even think about the possibility of enjoying my life again. Oh man it's all so screwed up.
Try to keep yourself up for the kids - children are so perceptive and pure in heart.
Hi mate the truth is I'm getting worse a lot worse I don't think I'll ever be able to understand why my wife was taken from me? I know that she had cancer and cancer killed her but I'm finding very hard to get my head around it i'm broken x
It's so hard - I mean trying to get your head around it. I do that all the time and I know it doesn't help me at all - I replay all the decisions we made and the paths we took. Would another path have saved her life? It's like russian roulette this cancer thing. If we had gone another way maybe Rossella would have passed several years ago or maybe cancer free.
As to why she was taken - who knows? That's probably for Rossella to discover and something I will not find the answer to. The main comfort is in knowing that it was only her body that was taken - just her physical manifestation in this world.
I just can't understand why it is taking so long to find a cure? A worldwide coordinated effort like with Covid can surely come up with solutions. It kills more than Covid.
We have 20 years of memories together and I am the one to keep those memories alive somehow someway.
You and your children will keep your wife alive and if you really take care of yourself and the children she will be so very very happy.
I feel just the same mate and asked the same questions over in my head I'm week I've lost the one person that really loves me for being me : I will go on I have to seem a crazy but I want my life to end no one can make me happy like martyne did x
Ok mate - very bad morning for me - crying so much now I am getting headaches. Better now - couldn't survive whole day like that. Just come back from a walk.
Hi just been reading last few messages, hope you both ok.
Keep taking one day at a time its like hurdles, not easy by no means and glad you two talk daily and exchange feelings its a great way of getting through each day.
