I lost my wife to cancer recently and I have never felt so alone. I am experiencing all kinds of extreme emotions from grief to guilt. I really want to connect and talk to others who have been through this terrible period.
Having a terrible morning - overwhelmed with guilt. It is unbearable- feel like I don't deserve to exist. Sickening feelings and no way out. Is this how it's going to be? Life imprisonment? Imprisoned by my mind. The worst morning ever. Sleep is my only escape from this nightmare. Feel so alone.
Got to somehow be strong......... in a constant battle with my own mind.
Calm down mate there's nothing you could of done couldn't stop the cancer remember that please The cancer killed her not yourself!! I'm just the same must of had an dream because as soon as I woke bang it hit me hard really hard feels like it's getting worse every morning
the sun is really bright here today it's made me feel good that's her looking down on us I rave sunshine but then I go the other way and think we will be doing loads today in the Sun maybe just walking along the beach or something I feel just the same I'm trying to get the boys dressed quickly as possible just so I can get outside for a walk again! I love to my wife but I never thought I'd be going through this kind of pain even when I think she was in so much pain but still want her back but that's just me being selfish x
I've had the worst morning like you sleep is my only way out then you wake up bang and go through all this pain every day again.
you have to think at least you got married so it was ment to be he really was you're happy ever after someone who loves you are you being you I keep telling myself that and it so hard because cancer got involved which changed everything x
Yes yes yes I have to calm down - so many ups and downs.
Once the restrictions are over i will do some travelling - definitely will go to northern India. This will give my mind a rest from all the reminders for a short time at least.
I would love to meet up before you go why India? are have to stay here and look after my boys I love them to bits but it's a constant reminder Wich is good and bad in a way
Good for you I'm glad you have Focus A vision of what you see yourself doing I think that's great i'm proud of you x. Me I'm I mess my wife was. The glue that stuck together our families! I went to mum and dads today with the boys and they didn't have a clue what to say and when they did say something it was all wrong anyway couldn't wait to get out of there
Hi you 2 just wondering how you both are, hope you both managing best you can , not easy i know.
Think if we weren't in lockdown and had no restrictions we could all occupy ourselves more but at the minute the only option is going a walk either with a friend or alone.
