Hi i lost my wife on the 22/12/ 2020 she was everything to me  mother of our children  my best friend  my lover  my everything  I'm so sorry for your loss  

Hi Chris, we both have to get through this.

I know that my wife would not want me to be like this.

She would want me to live my life.

If anything I have to try to be strong for her.

You too and at least you have children to cherish and love from the relationship.

Rich x

 I no what your saying about  keeping strong my wife would  want the same for me and the kids but we all feel a massive pice or all our hearts ripped out  things will get better in time I hope. As you  probably feel the same you have lost your best friend - sole mate- rock - lover  lover  is hurting me the most at the mo but  changes every 5 minutes 

Yes I know - I have just had a really bad hour.

I feel empty and that there is no point to life.

No meaning to anything anymore along with a massive feeling of guilt.

I just feel that she is still with me by my side - trying to tell me that everything is ok.

Everything will be ok.

I often think about following my wife to heaven but some how feel she would be mad at me as she thought so hard to beat cancer and did for 6 years she loved life and for me to end mind seems wrong no  to mention the boys how would they cope . I understand your pain mate I really do how come you feel guilty? At least you feel her with you  I can't feel anything just loss and pain 

I often think about following my wife to heaven but some how feel she would be mad at me as she thought so hard to beat cancer and did for 6 years she loved life and for me to end mind seems wrong no  to mention the boys how would they cope . I understand your pain mate I really do how come you feel guilty? At least you feel her with you  I can't feel anything just loss and pain 

The guilt is just feelings of 'did I really do everything I could for her?'; 'did i tell her everything in my heart before she passed?' Etc. Little upsets that we had and thinking of times I got impatient with her. There are so many irrational emotions that can kick in when your loved one is dying. 

I understand I felt the same still do ! I'm sure you said everything  that needs t said and did everything you could do  as for little arguments I feel the same  I remember  we were out with the kids and they wanted an icecream  so we all went to the shop  but mummy could not keep up  so we said meet you back at the house The shop was only a 10 minute walk do you really have cared if I was 15 minutes and she got to come with us x

Thankyou for sharing that with me - it helps to know that it's not just me feeling this way. 

I was feeling at times that I couldn't live with myself!

I know she wouldn't want this.

It's ok mate  there are good people on here to talk to  talking dose help   I'm at the stage now  we're I'm asking why my wife why was she taken  from me  how will I get over the fact I'm never going to see her again  or sleep next to her  or even wach her in the shower  life is so cruel 

I have the same feelings and emotions as you.

I am trying hard not to look at them - avoid them in my mind.

It helps for a while until something reminds me of her - which is nearly everything.