Lost my dad on Christmas morning!

My beautiful dad passed away in the early hours of Christmas morning. I've never felt pain like this before, my heart is aching and I don't know what to do from one day to the next. He didn't let me know his cancer was terminal and it hurts so much that he chose to go through this without his family knowing. I'm not sure if anyone has been through this and I'm reaching out to anyone who can help me understand and get through all the pain. I feel so guilty that I didn't realise how ill he was, I feel like I should of known.

Thankyou 

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  • I'm so sorry for your loss, it's just so hard isn't it. One minute I'm crying so hard, the next I feel numb, then I can't move and find it hard to even brush my teeth. I've never felt pain like it. The whole experience has been so overwhelming, I find comfort in talking, this is what gets me through. 

    I have been trying to find strength to get my mum through but it's such a struggle. My dad loved Christmas, and to see all his presents unopened was just so cruel, I will never forget that morning and just want the pain to go away.

     

    I hope you have had as much support as I have, sending so much love your way and I hope we can all get through this together.

    Take care and thankyou for your kind words x

  • That is exactly how I feelTalking on here definitely helps me as for your pain I have that to I've been told it will get better  but I'm not so sure!   Your right  in everything you say  about feeling numb can't brush your teeth ect  I'm like that miss her in every way as I wife she was my best friend-sole mate- mother of my kids- my rock- my lover .about every 2 minutes are cry about with one I want silly I no but it's all I can do right now . Christmas Day yes that was crap we  still have presents for her  under the tree don't no what to do with them got her some sexy underwear she would love  shame I never got to see her in them.  You don't need to stay strong for you mum she will understand your feelings x