Well done for cooking a bit more I'm so rubbish at cooking  children just need love  and support I'm trying my best to be mummy and daddy  but a mother s love is impossible to compete with so I'm f u c -- there  well done for  sticking on gems  on paper  my nine year old would  like that lol  thank you for the hugs not had a real one from a lady for ages just the boys which are great to be honest 

Yes virtual hugs are all anyone can have right now, Lewis gave the best bear hugs my head would be right in his chest in his man mane he would call it, little hairy patch on the chest he was very proud of that, no hair on his legs, bald head great beard and little hairy chest. He gave me a hug when I first met him. 

I would love to get a cat or something but it would have to be a house cat as I'm in a first floor flat but it would have to be really tolerant of hugs

All cats love hugs don't they?  Lol I have a man main   I have a dog Little West Highland terrier   He loves cuddle s now my wife has gone  he sleeps in the bed  she would not be to happy abou that. Lewis seems a great man just like my wife. It sounds silly but I can't really understand that dead means forever  and I will see her again but not for years and years  how do we go forward  very slowly I guess 

My sister has a little terrier type thing used to hate me now follows me since Christmas, it's odd I'm still thinking it's lulling me into a false sense of security. 
 

I know I hope I will be with him again one day just thinking I will be an old lady and he will be young he might not fancy me anymore. 
 

yes it's slow from what other people have told me on the groups is it gets easier but there will be ups and downs, we will never stop loving them and the memories will no longer make us sad and we will smile at the happy times. 

No I'm sure the dog loves you really. 
Oh my God I've never thought of that i'm really worried now  I don't want to be old  and the wife young  she may not fancy me your so right!  

I'm sure Lewis will I was his only treacle he would say, your wife will dig however you look, I'm sure you will be like George clooney, salt and pepper and better with age that's what I hope! I've got a few greys already I blame working with covid so my hair is purple right now! 

Lewis told me to find someone else when he was ill and one of the brief periods he was home, he meant like at that moment as he did not want to be a burden to me, he didn't want me to be his carer. I tried not to be nuts it hard when he needed help and when your a nurse you can't not help. 
I'm only 34 I don't know what will happen but I know I will get lonely at some point. Is a cuddle buddy a thing? It should be

Cuddle buddy I don't no ? But I no what you mean going forward  I'd like something like that      I'm sure I will get lonely but  I would like to meet someone who just wants company not sex or full on love  someone who understand s   When I write this down on the dating site he will look at me lol 

Yes a companion like what old people have, I think my grandad has one in his care home.