Your so right not 

much we can do but  move forward one day at a time   Just don't want to move on without her 

I know it's hard to think of doing things without them.

I spoke with a therapist from the hospice over the phone today she said it is to close that chapter while the person is not at rest. There is no funeral plans for Lewis yet, this is being sorted by his family as I don't have the finances for anything. So I feel in limbo not knowing what is going to happen to him. Also there is different opinions about burial or cremation. I said cremation and then you can have some of the ashes made into jewellery so I can always have him with me. 

How do you mean not at rest yet ? Can't you call his family and ask to be involved  Lewis would want you to be a part of  the plans I'm sure .we are going for cremation it's what  my wife wanted  then a stone in our local cemetery! All the way  I have wanted my my wife's mum  to be involved x

That makes sense  maybe that's why I can't see my wife in heaven I really do want  her to be up there.  I really hope  you can help with the funeral   My wife funeral is jan14   Just got pics to do music done  cindy layper true colours  going in to Rachel Platin better place with all the pics   Then her last song she always wanted bonjovi it's my life 

Yes I am helping picking his clothes and I know the music he wanted, wish you were here by pink floyd, I also think some Jimi Hendrix either little wing or purple haze maybe, and the bottom theme tune. 
 

I've been downloading lots of pictures from his google drive and his phone in case they want pictures. Lewis would take their old baby pictures and scan them into his computer and fix them so they would look better so I've got lots of pictures of him and his family when they were young I thought it might be nice to make them photo albums at some point as well. 
 

I'm hoping the funeral will be soon, I checked and you can still have 30 people at a funeral so that's good. 

I sure it will be  and it will be perfect for him I'm sure 

 Just done more pictures for the funeral it feels good now it's done but the pain  of which one do you pic  not good at all very hard   

I can imagine, we have so many pictures, Lewis loved photography so he has so many files of photos. 

Hi Chris,

Firstly, I am so very sad for your loss. Please squeeze your beautiful children a little tighter for both of you. 
 

I was diagnosed end of Sept, aged 39. So your post definitely caught my eye. My son is 8. 
I had surgery end of October and start chemo next week. 
 

it's all very very scary. But I'm so ready to fight this