Hi I made a mistake when I said my wife got the all clear she still had to go for mri scan every year  to check 

I really feel the pain you are going through, I lost my husband back in June and it feels like the pain I have will never ease. But I want to tell you, I meet my husband 36 years ago he had lost his wife, left with 4 children. When we met we just clicked, even though he had 4 children we were so happy, had one more child after we got married. It was hard work, but we loved each other so much, we just got on with life. I hope you will find happiness again, you may not feel like it, but you are too young not to find happiness. Take care of yourself. Your children will keep you busy, and full of love. 

Thank you for taking the time to read my message and reply !  That's amazing your husband  any your self hit it off  where did you meet ?  And how are you doing at the moment? I feel I have lost a big part of me and doing things I don't want to to register the death  ect ect all  I want is her love her so much she was so many thing s   Mummy to the kids / my best mate/ sole mate/ lover  I guess at the mo   I change every 5 mins is I miss my lover  I  no that's strange but  miss that a lot  scap that just miss all of her so much x

Hello, we met at a local hotel, the years have flown by, we were married for almost 36 years, we were so happy and loved each other so much, I hate this feeling I have of such pain inside me. I feel that I can not smile or laugh, I was so happy with my life, it's just so cruel it's been taken away. I am so lost, the pandemic has been just a double blow. I know I need to talk to people in the same situation, but we can't meet anyone to talk to. I can imagine how you are feeling, it's so cruel what you are experiencing. I know  we just have to try and stay strong.

I know exactly how you feel  all this staying strong is so hard  COVID dose not help at all your right all I want is my wife  and to kiss her x

Sorry for your loss

I lost my fiancé 5 weeks after diagnosis of metastatic pancreatic cancer, he was 37. 
 

Talking does help while it makes me upset initially I feel better for it. 
 

it might be nice to get some memory bears made using your wife's clothing for the children? It's something I plan to do, I've ordered a key ring for me and his mum with his handwriting on from birthday cards he sent me. 
 

memory jars sound lovely print off pictures of her favourite perfume would be nice. 

I can imagine, all you want is your wife and to love her. It's so painful, nobody knows. 

Hello thank you very much for having the time  to read my message and just send me a text I'm also sorry for your loss memory bears Sounds a good idea like the sound of that! It's so hard To grieve and look after the boys I just have to do my best and hope my wife is Proud of everything I'm doing  even if that all it seems to be is crying at the moment . I know it's a really stupid question but are you coping okay it's so hard to loose your lover best friend your everything so fast  that's what I'm struggling on with at The moment  x

Just want To believe that she is ok in heaven  there is no way she wanted to leave us  and need to be reassured that she is up there and is safe  To me it feels like very much one minute they're here the next minute they're gone? Hate that feeling the most x