I am so sorry, I can imagine how you are feeling, I lost my husband of 35 years back in June, I am trying to be strong, but inside I am screaming for help. What a dreadful feeling, I don't like to put on others, I try to cope, but it's so hard. Have you had any help at all? With what is going on with the Covid I don't like to bother people.  Christmas will not be easy, just have to go through it. I feel that I can not even smile any more. I don't know what advice to give, just that I feel your pain and hope in time we can get a bit better. Just look after yourself and we must try and be kind to ourselves. It's just a horrible feeling that doesn't go away, we have to remember the good times we had. 

I am so sorry, I can imagine how you are feeling, I lost my husband of 35 years back in June, I am trying to be strong, but inside I am screaming for help. What a dreadful feeling, I don't like to put on others, I try to cope, but it's so hard. Have you had any help at all? With what is going on with the Covid I don't like to bother people.  Christmas will not be easy, just have to go through it. I feel that I can not even smile any more. I don't know what advice to give, just that I feel your pain and hope in time we can get a bit better. Just look after yourself and we must try and be kind to ourselves. It's just a horrible feeling that doesn't go away, we have to remember the good times we had.