Hi

I lost my wife to bone / lung cancer 2 days ago, i feel like my heart has been completely ripped out, she was diagnosed in october after 3 months of illnesses, we have fought and fought to keep her going with incorrect diagnosis and doctors saying she was lying because she had too many issue's. Delays after delays, NHS England denying her treatment saying she didnt tick all the boxes, more delays, eventually she had her first chemo/immunotherapy a week ago but it was too late to help.
 

She lost consiousness for a few minutes, when she came to, she was saying she couldnt breath and pains in her chest, called 999 they arrived within 10 miutes but she was gone 5 mins later. It was so sudden and unexpected so soon, how do I cope with this now, I have lost my sole mate, the love of my life.