I lost my close friend to cancer of the liver and bile duct late September 2020 within 2 months of her diagnosis. I simply never had time to process the idea of her mortality before she passed away. I never got to say goodbye to her, and while she was poorly I was barely able to see her in part due to the virus and her being in and out of hospital, but mostly due to myself being afraid to see her sick and not wanting to bother her or cause extra stress, and since I had no inkling in my mind that she would lose her battle, I just respected her privacy and kept my distance, completely convinced we would talk about things later after she started feeling better. I was so sure, without any doubt in my mind that she would fight the cancer off in no time, so when I got the call that she had passed away the morning after being discharged from hospital it came as a complete shock. Did anyone else not get to say goodbye to their loved one, and does anyone have any tips or experience dealing with the guilt of having not spoken to them as much while they were ill?
