Hey, 

I'm so sorry to hear about your dad, but I know how you feel. I lost mine on the 14th November also from cancer and as you did for yours I took care of him. I understand it's so hard trying to do all you can to try and make them feel better but you can't always do it. 
talking to others isn't always easy either, I tend not to just because I don't really know actually, It's hard, and like you say you don't want to upset anyone but that can't always be a bad thing, it just shows how much they loved and cared for your dad and it's all part of the grieving process. I'm sorry if they're not ready to talk about him but if you are go ahead, talk to us if you like, anytime. Talking about memories and good times brings such a lovely feeling, thinking about him, talking about him, all those memories keeps him with you, he will always be with you just like mine will always be with me. 
I also sit and think about all the things we were hoping to do or said we would and it always makes me cry but then I try to remember all the times we did have together and how much he loved all of us and would literally move mountains for us. I'm welling up just writing this! I haven't felt I can write anything down yet which is a go to for me really, I find it really helps so if you feel you can writing some memories down of you and your dad may be a way of getting your feelings and memories out in a different way. 
you're so strong, what you did for your dad and how you are staying strong for your family. If you ever need to talk we are right here and we'll always listen and help as much as we can. We understand and if we struggle to a little we will try our best to. I'm sending you a huge hug, 

Bex x 

Hey, 

I'm so sorry to hear about your dad, but I know how you feel. I lost mine on the 14th November also from cancer and as you did for yours I took care of him. I understand it's so hard trying to do all you can to try and make them feel better but you can't always do it. 
talking to others isn't always easy either, I tend not to just because I don't really know actually, It's hard, and like you say you don't want to upset anyone but that can't always be a bad thing, it just shows how much they loved and cared for your dad and it's all part of the grieving process. I'm sorry if they're not ready to talk about him but if you are go ahead, talk to us if you like, anytime. Talking about memories and good times brings such a lovely feeling, thinking about him, talking about him, all those memories keeps him with you, he will always be with you just like mine will always be with me. 
I also sit and think about all the things we were hoping to do or said we would and it always makes me cry but then I try to remember all the times we did have together and how much he loved all of us and would literally move mountains for us. I'm welling up just writing this! I haven't felt I can write anything down yet which is a go to for me really, I find it really helps so if you feel you can writing some memories down of you and your dad may be a way of getting your feelings and memories out in a different way. 
you're so strong, what you did for your dad and how you are staying strong for your family. If you ever need to talk we are right here and we'll always listen and help as much as we can. We understand and if we struggle to a little we will try our best to. I'm sending you a huge hug, 

Bex x