Hello there

My husband died of oesophageal cancer on 30 September. He was ill for a year but it was still a huge shock. Like you, I just can't get my head around that this is forever. I keep going over the last few weeks  but it is a blur. Did I sit with him enough? Did I talk to him about his feelings? I wish I had that last month again. 
 

My dog gives me a reason to get up in the morning and I have to take him out but nothing else seems worth doing. I am lucky that my children live close but when I am alone the grief washes over me and everything feels hopeless.

Do you have children or friends to support you? A couple of hours with my grandchildren gives me a brief rest from sobbing. I am better if I keep busy. Lockdown means we spend more time on our own which is not helpful. They say that times heals - we shall see but not soon.

Good luck and I hope we both start to feel better.

Ronnie

Hello there

My husband died of oesophageal cancer on 30 September. He was ill for a year but it was still a huge shock. Like you, I just can't get my head around that this is forever. I keep going over the last few weeks  but it is a blur. Did I sit with him enough? Did I talk to him about his feelings? I wish I had that last month again. 
 

My dog gives me a reason to get up in the morning and I have to take him out but nothing else seems worth doing. I am lucky that my children live close but when I am alone the grief washes over me and everything feels hopeless.

Do you have children or friends to support you? A couple of hours with my grandchildren gives me a brief rest from sobbing. I am better if I keep busy. Lockdown means we spend more time on our own which is not helpful. They say that times heals - we shall see but not soon.

Good luck and I hope we both start to feel better.

Ronnie