My mum passed away last week after what we thought was a short battle with cancer, she had hidden how bad it was. It had spread from her ovaries to her liver stomach and bowel causing the bowel to rupture. Within 5 days of being in hospital she lost her brave fight. I cried when we found out I cried when she first slipped away, but for the last three days I can't cry and I can't process that it's real I am laughing and doing things I normally do .. but inside I don't feel normal, I keep trying to think of things which Would normally make me cry but nothing ... is this normal ? I suffer with anexity and panic disorder and I would have thought this would had made me more emotional... I feel dead inside and that's not me.
