I can really relate. Lost my mum 10th Sept it's so incredable hard I feel like iv lost everything. She was best friend. 

Like you I was there though our at home with her but now she's gone I just feel lost. She was only 57. 

Miss ringing her, messaging her, laughing together crying together, her laugher her advice. I know people say it gets easier but I'm really struggling like you. 

I feel just the same I lost my wife on 23/8/20 to stage 4 colon cancer we had such little time 7 weeks from diagnosis to her passing only 54 

it's all the little things you miss like you said the calling me at work asking what I want for dinner,the laughing and the arguing also I miss hearing her voice and keep looking for her I reach out in vain and whisper her name constantly 

you never accept death in my opinion you just learn to live along side it my wife was my rock ,my best friend and I will remember her everyday 

you must stay strong as I'm sure your mum just as my wife would want us to be strong and fulfill our lives in there memory 

one promise I made to my wife was that I would always be strong for our children and that our grandchildren would always know who there nan was and that's what keeps me going strong 

it's only been 6 weeks and still I'm confused,hurting and angry I guess but none of this will bring my beautiful wife home to me so I just take it day by day and I know she is with me giving me the strength that I need to see this through until we are reunited once again 

take care look after yourself 

I'm struggling with her loss no not had any help only family popping in now and then to check on me my wife started to get angry and nasty in her final 3 days lashing out at family members even telling me to leave her alone etc but I know that wasn't my wife speaking to me 

she told me she didn't want to die and that was the hard part knowing we could do nothing to save her  but I promised her I would look after our boys and her daughter from a previous marriage and the grandchildren which is a promise I ment and will do as long as I live the house and my world feel empty now without her I find talking about her helps and I still talk to her during the day and at night in bed as if she was here don't know if that's normal but it helps me a little I'm still young at 50 and know I may have many years ahead of me without her but I won't go a day without missing her in some way or another and to be honest I look at each day that passes I'm one day closer to being with her again grief is a funny thing and seems to come in stages as the weeks go by but I know that promise I made her so that keeps me going I feel she is around me sometimes and that's a comfort also but maybe it's time I got some counselling as I'm not that strong with her loss 

ypu take care of yourself

 Mal

Hi,

I am so very sorry for the loss of your mum, and feel for you greatly. How comforting for her it must have been to have you to care for her through to the end. You are so brave to have been able to have done that. I am sure that would have meant so much to her. I see that you are very recently bereaved and it will take time to come to terms and accept your loss. Please be kind to yourself while you are grieving and please be sure to reach out for support while you come to terms. You ensured your mum was comforted and supported during her fight with cancer, so, I am sure she would not want you to suffer in silence with your grief. Take good care of yourself, and I send you the most heartfelt of condolences.