Hi everyone,
this is my first post on here.
I'm 23 and have just lost my 61 year old dad to a short but painless battle with pancreatic cancer. He had a blood clot which was causing him pain so he had a CT scan which showed he had stage four pancreatic cancer that had spread to his liver, spleen and lymph nodes. From the CT scan to his passing it was only eight weeks.
I am really struggling to get by everyday without my dad, I miss him so much and really don't know how I am going to carry on my life without him. He always said to me that he'll be on his cloud watching me but I want to be on his cloud with him, I honestly feel like my heart has been shattered. My dad was taken from me at such a young age, he will never see his grandchildren, never be called grandad, never walk me down the aisle and all this kills me, I just don't know how to cope anymore. I was always very close with my dad and I really feel like I took him for granted.. there are so many things I want to ask him, say to him and take advice from him. I just feel so lost. I have no friends that have lost their parent, all my friends compare it to losing their grandparent but for me it's so different that it's my dad that he gone. I miss him so much and I love him so much. I'm just rambling now but has anyone got any advice for me? Please? Thank you x
