hello 

firstly sorry for your loss, which is made totally worse by the covid restrictions, i feel your pain but at least your mum did not suffer and long and drawn out illness like some cancer patients, i think it took my dad 7 weeks of actively dying !! that was tough to cope with in the end i was wishing he would go and be out of pain .. but to answer your question, no i dont think it does get easier i think we just learn to cope the more time that goes on, i still talk to my dad at his photo mainly i think this helps me, i talk about him to all my family and friends and this helps too, remembering the good times and not thinking about the suffering he endured.. 

talk to your daughter about your mum tell her all the things you two used to do even if she cant talk back yet im sure you mum will be listening and smiling at you recalling the good times, 

take each day as it comes and do not beat yaself up about having sad days or sad hours or minutes they will pass, your always going to love and miss your mum you will just get better at it

Lisa x 

Hi

Just wanted to reach out to you and firstly say im so so sorry for your loss.  I too lost my beautiful Mum April 23rd this year.  She too was diagnosed with lung cancer.  She had her diagnosis November 2018 while at the same appointment was told it was terminal I was 6 months pregnant at the time. She put up a good fight for 17 months.  I like you am just left lost and confused and you are right it isnt fair.  Try and take  some comfort from the fact she didnt suffer for a long time.  My Mum was also my best friend she wasnt just a Mum to me We done so much togther and had so much fun and so now life seems so empty without her.  Myself or my sisters wernt allowed to visit her in hospital because of covid...only my stepdad which is something im struggling with, living with the idea your mum is going to die you at least think you will beable to be by her side on final days  and hours.  So im now nearly 3 months past that horrible day and im sorry but im no better than the day she died.  I cant myself see it getting better i think like others have told me you maybe just learn to live with that pain.  Sounds like you had a good relationship with your mum so take comfort from the good times and the memories.  My mum didnt want us to be sad and was particularly worried about how I would cope im the youngest of my sisters and was really close with her...so I try my best for my mum to not fall apart i have a 16 month old son and 8 year old daughter who my mum loved so so much so i just concentrate on being a good mum to them as she was proud of the mum I was to them.   Just try and think of what she would want you to do to help give you strength and guide you through this really hard time.  Covid has really screwed up my grieving process so many things im angry about not just for me but for my mum.  Before covid hit she was getting out and about doing nice things and seeing me and her grandson almost everyday and its unfair that her freedom was ripped away from her and seeing her family in what were her last weeks.  Im unable to really let myself process what has actually happened as i just become overwhelmed with grief.  Life is cruel.  Just remember you are not alone.  If you ever want to talk im here.  X