I never imagined that I wouldn't have my dad in life. He died unexpectedly just before Christmas 2019. I turned 30 earlier this month. I didn't really want to celebrate because it didn't seen right without him. In May after nearly 9 years my boyfriend purposed! He was very close with my dad too.. It was bittersweet because I was so excited, I had waited for this for so long, then it hit me.. my daddy wont be there to walk me down the aisle! I cried until I could cry no more. I'm not planning on get married right away but any time I think about a wedding I just panic because i honestly dont know how i could get married without him. I just dont think I could hold it together.. I wouldn't expect not to cry but I think on the day if I started I wouldn't stop. I think the day itself is already filled with high emotions. Without the not having your daddy there.
