It's been a year now without my beautiful mum, and it's possibly been the toughest year for me. I know people say that "time is a healer" and that "the first year is the hardest" but i have still not accepted the fact she is no longer here. I am now 18 and had my first birthday without her and it just wasn't the same, since my mum I have had a tough old journey with my dad hitting the drink heavily and been put in hospital and nearly not making it himself and having a abusive ex boyfriend who made my life hell. Life at the moment is not a nice place and my mind is very dark and all I want is my mum. I haven't spoken to anyone because I just feel like it won't do much good as they can't bring her back and that is the only thing I want. I thought by now I would of had maybe a sign or something from my mum looking down on me but I've had nothing. As it's been a year I would of thought I would of been coping with it a lot better. does it really get any easier??
