Hi Butterfly01, 

I'm so sorry for your loss and everything else that's been happening. I'm glad you've reached out on this forum. 
I think lots of people seem to have in their minds that loss is something we 'get over'. I'm not sure that we ever do. We get used to it maybe, we adapt, life grows around the grief rather than the grief going away. That's how I see things anyway. Unfortunately you're right - no one can bring her back. But that doesn't mean that talking to someone won't help. You sound like you've had a lot to deal with and at an important time in your life. If you're at school/college is there any support system there? 

Hello, I'm new to all this but I need to talk about it before I break. My beautiful, brave strong mum has suffered one health problem after the other all her life, after a difficult time at Christmas where we thought she'd had a stroke as her left arm and leg had become very weak and her mouth had dropped on one side. Mum finally had a CT scan where we were told that she had a grade 4 glioblastoma and could not be treated. Our World just fell apart from that moment. We were told weeks to months and to go home and enjoy the time we have left. Since then mum has lost all mobility and has become very confused most of the time. The other morning we woke up and mum s breathing was awful, she was gurgling and sounds of bubbles at the back of her throat, we could not wake her and her mouth open. The district nurse came and said to get the family here and sit with mum as today could be her last. I was mortified. We spent 24 hrs at her bedside wondering if each breath would be her last. ( also her hands, feet and lips were blue) Then in the next few hrs her colour came back and she opened her eyes and began to talk, nothing that made any sense but even so. 3 days on and she's still fighting. I know we've got to go through this all again soon but I'm grateful for the extra days we've been given. The nurses can't believe how my mum came back from this and said they have never seen anything like it before. 

Hi

Just reading your advice and I thought thank goodness for your honesty. I'm only 2 moths into losing my much loved Mum. Life can't ever be the same. Time doesn't help, it makes it worst currently. We have no choose but to try and keep going. Only people who have suffered a loss can really under stand.

In my thoughts.

regards Jayne