My husband died last Friday(15th May, 2020). He has been battling cancer for the last 15yrs. Started in the bowel, managed to overcome it but it metastasised to his liver and lungs. He died at home with myself and our three sons around him. He had no symptoms until December, then started to get pain, and has just gradually become more tired and the pain increased, so on a lot of medication which never got the pain under control. He lost his appetite and basically stopped eating properly about five weeks ago, couldn’t swallow properly, and he just slowly declined. I feel he wasn’t given the treatment he deserved due to the covid virus. He was having his pain monitored by the hospice nurse but she never actually me him, it was all done over the phone. The doctor hadn’t seen him since January, except for a video call. And now we can’t have the funeral he deserves either. He left the house in pyjamas, and they won’t except clothes so that’s how he is going to be cremated. We can’t do anything because of the lock down and it’s just a living hell. It’s like everyday is the same, we can’t escape and we were married for over 30yrs. I miss him so much and I see him all the time. The pain is just so raw. He was my best friend and my soull mate. The best father and grandfather. I am 50yrs old and I have lost the love of my life