I was so moved to read your post bures and just wanted to welcome you to our forum and send you my heartfelt condolences on behalf of the Cancer Chat team. 

I am sorry to hear that your poor husband wasn't given the treatment he deserved due to coronavirus and it's so sad that this has also had an impact on the funeral arrangements. 

I just wanted you to know that we are all here for you - I have edited your title slightly so that others who have also lost a loved one recently can spot your post more easily and share their own story with you. Many here will know only too well how you are feeling at the moment and how raw the pain can be.

We are thinking of you and your family during this difficult time. 

Warmest wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator 

Having read your article. It's very moving to learn what happened to your partner. I'm deeply sorry for the loss. The only thing I can take any comfort is that me myself isn't alone. I lost my mother nearly two years ago this July. Of lung cancer. I was her carer up until she was hospitalised and four days later she died. Even two years on nearly I'm worse now than ever. I haven't even cried properly. It's all been like a haze. But I had to go to hospital today to seek help. I'm contemplating suicide. The pain is unbearable. I'm not the same person before she went. I hope the support in place today will help me to move forward and heal somewhat. Losing someone so close is the worst thing we have to deal with. I wish you all the best and hope you can learn to live again in some way. As myself. 

Dear Bures

I lost my beloved husband on March 11 this year to pancreatic cancer which had spread to his liver - he was 45.

it was exactly 5 weeks to the day from diagnosis to him passing and it was a brutal 5 weeks.

The deterioration in him was so fast - you wouldn't believe it unless you see it - cancer, particularly his type, is so aggressive.

Matthew was the kindest, funniest, most caring man ever and I was privileged to be his wife for 16 years and I miss him terribly everyday.

Its been 11 weeks now since he died and although it's incredibly hard it does get ever so slightly easier as time goes by. Take one day at a time and give yourself a huge pat on the back for everyday you get through and be gentle on yourself .

Take care x

like you i lost my husband on mothers day 22nd march we were together 52 years and i am heartbroken

i am crying day and night just in limbo all the time .my children live abroad. it is the thought of being on my own for the rest of my life we did everything together. and this virus has caused so many problems, trying to sort things out financially takes forever and was told i cannot have his ashes till july, so i would like someone to tell me how do you go on from this.