I'm so sorry to hear that. Losing your mum has to be one the hardest and cruelest things you can go to, there is literally nobody else that can ever feel the hole. I feel a lot of pressure to start 'moving on' now but I never will, and never want to. As silly as it sounds I don't ever want to be happy again because how could I be. Not truly happy anyway. On my wedding day they'll be an empty chair for the most important person. Nobody to help me try on dresses. She'll never meet her grand children, they'll never know her. It's just unbearable.  xxx

I know you are young, I'm 33 so i feel like I've the whole chunk of my life to live without her, knowing she wont be around to see things happening in my life, it's so sad, you feel like you have being robbed, my mam was the same she didn't want to leave she balled her eyes out and said it to me, and what's hard is knowing they didn't want to go, but unfortunately they had to and couldn't do anything, but your mam is watching over you now and she probably is thinking, I don't want my daughter to be miserable without me, she be up there upset and crying known your on your own without her and unhappy, I'm a mom I have a 9 year old and I'm 33 and he was devastated his nanny died and trying to explain to him, he was also very close to her, but I know as a mother if I died and was watching over him and he was constantly down and upset and unhappy after some time, I would be gutted, I'd be turning in my grave  ! I'd want him to grieve for me and take time to, but not to be miserable, unhappy and not living his life, so please be patient with yourself, like I'm saying all this to you but I am struggling some days and I miss her terrible, but I'm just telling you as a mother that's how I would feel.. also if you light a candle at night and speak to her ask for signs she's around, be open to it not afraid and you will receive them, I have and I couldn't believe it, I would be one to be into all this stuff but I have recieved 3 signs, and it was definitely her, they also can come to you in your dreams to, believe and you shall receive, listen if you fancy a chat or a coffee sometime or a walk let me know ! we can chat away about our mams xx 

yes it is, and lifes not fare some path are harder then others