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I have never done this before but it's been eating me up inside so I just wanted to post it somewhere. In september I lost my closest friend to cancer that he had been fighting for some time. He was truly someone who I had planned as my rival in life, and we wanted to compete and to challenge each other when we got to university together. Unfortunately he didn't make it but here I am going into third year, nearly one year since he passed and I can't stop crying. I miss him so much and I just want to talk to him again, I just want to say how much I love him, and how much he influences my life. It was his 21st birthday a few days ago and I couldn't bring myself to even think about it. I ignored it like a coward because I hate thinking about him being gone. Does anyone have any help to deal with this situation. I understand millions of people have gone through far worse hardship than I have but I'm just struggling to cope. I just miss my best friend. I miss you Jack, and I will never stop loving you

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    Hi [@Richjt]‍ ,

    Firstly you are not "cowardly" by any stretch, to have gone through such an awful situation, you are simply trying to cope with the loss of your best friend.

    It must be so awful to have lost your soul mate, no one can prepare you for that at any age let alone at just 21. I think it is great that you have reached out for help, and all I can say is my thoughts are with you, you are not alone in this grief.

    All the best, x

  • Offline in reply to Hollyp12

    Thank you, just seeing someone has taken time out of their day to write that has made me a lot happier. I really appreciate it:)

  • Offline in reply to Richjt

    Hi there ...

    So so sorry your going through this heartbraking time at the moment... but I'm sure he's right there in your heart ... safely tucked up ... you can carry him with you through life ... the things you achieve,  the people you meet .. the choices you make, he'll be right there ... just coz we can't see them, doesn't mean he's not standing right beside you ...

    There's lots on here, know the pain of loosing loved ones ... many will read your thread .. you will help others going through loosing a best buddy ... there's not many who don't share that pain your going through on here ... it's a safe place where you can write those feelings down ...

    You be kind to your self ... and give yourself permission to grieve ... or feel angry .. or cuss at cancer .. but after you get that out .. get back up, and do what he'd want you to do ... live, laugh and be happy .. coz that's what he'd probly tell you ... we all get down days ... and that's o.k ... but it's in balance...

    Sending you a vertual hug.... Chrissie xx

     

  • Offline in reply to Chriss

    Sorry I'm try to add not reply because I lost the post . So sorry x

  • Offline in reply to Richjt

    That's alright, I'm always here to chat:)

    hope you're doing okay, Holly

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