Hi [@Richjt]‍ ,

Firstly you are not "cowardly" by any stretch, to have gone through such an awful situation, you are simply trying to cope with the loss of your best friend.

It must be so awful to have lost your soul mate, no one can prepare you for that at any age let alone at just 21. I think it is great that you have reached out for help, and all I can say is my thoughts are with you, you are not alone in this grief.

All the best, x

Thank you, just seeing someone has taken time out of their day to write that has made me a lot happier. I really appreciate it:)

Hi there ...

So so sorry your going through this heartbraking time at the moment... but I'm sure he's right there in your heart ... safely tucked up ... you can carry him with you through life ... the things you achieve,  the people you meet .. the choices you make, he'll be right there ... just coz we can't see them, doesn't mean he's not standing right beside you ...

There's lots on here, know the pain of loosing loved ones ... many will read your thread .. you will help others going through loosing a best buddy ... there's not many who don't share that pain your going through on here ... it's a safe place where you can write those feelings down ...

You be kind to your self ... and give yourself permission to grieve ... or feel angry .. or cuss at cancer .. but after you get that out .. get back up, and do what he'd want you to do ... live, laugh and be happy .. coz that's what he'd probly tell you ... we all get down days ... and that's o.k ... but it's in balance...

Sending you a vertual hug.... Chrissie xx

Sorry I'm try to add not reply because I lost the post . So sorry x

That's alright, I'm always here to chat:)

hope you're doing okay, Holly