My partner is currently in hospital with adenocarcinomo in her brain, she is seeing the Oncologist Tuesday and due to her condition and Covid19 I have had no contact (she is unable to remember the code fer her mobile phone) we are in Italy which just makes things worse communications wise as my medical Italian needs brushing up.

She has been given months to live and is not eating and very weak according to the hospital. 

I feel the grieving process has started already and I am vacillating between sobbing and cursing with very little else in between, things we discussed about my future post her are replaced with the idea I will not ever get over this and can't see a time when things will be OK.

I am very worried that when she comes home I will not be able to care for my girl properly..

Any advice would be greatly appreciated.