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my mum died roundly 4 years ago, 3 days after christmas. i am a 16 year old girl. i have found that my mums death has made me a stronger person each day. i go through tasks thinking "my mum would be so proud" and just thinking that makes me want to try harder at things in life. because her life was cut so short, and she wasn't able to see me grow up and do teenage stuff, i hope she watches down on me now and is happy with the person i have become. there are some days when i miss her so much, but i just think of all the positive memories i have with her. i felt the need to share this as i find it hard to express my emotions with my friends and family. i hope all the people grieving out there find there something that makes them happy. 

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    Hi milliewashere, well done you've definitely got the right attitude. 

    Hope others read your letter and it gives them ideas and something to follow on. 

    Hope you have a good future then your mum will really be happy with you. Best wishes..

    Billy 

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    Hi there ..

    And welcome ... bless ya .. that's what I did after I lost my mum .. I just realised how lucky I was to have had her in my life ... and I've tried to do those things she taught me .. to help others .. even strangers .. to be kind .. to always see the good in people ( which is hard sometimes)  and life .. to appreciate the little things in life .. and know one day I'll see her again ..

    Now look in your mirror... you are half of your mum .. she made you .. she will see through your eyes, and live in your heart .. and yes I know she'd look down and say " thats my girl" with pride ...  we don't loose them, we take them with us through life .. and sometimes when I look up and ask a question .. I just know what she'd say .. listen to the song " I'll see you again" by Westlife ... the words are so amazing ..

    It's 30 years sinse my wonderful mum left .. but like the words of the song .. I feel her walk beside me .. and I know, I'll see her again ... so high 5 to you amazing lass .. you keep on making her proud .. sending you a vertual hug...  Chrissie   

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    you are such a lovely person. this has made me feel so much better. i didn't expect anyone to reply. but i thank you so much for replying and trying to help. you are literally an angel. i really hope you're okay in this tough time of quarantine. you've made my day. x

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    thank you. i hope you are okay. i want to say thank you for reading my post. it really means a lot 

  • Offline in reply to milliewashere

    Sending you one of my spiecial nanny hugs ... they are my Emily hugs ( in pic) I'm sure she'd love you to have one ...  Chrissie  

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    awwwww i'm sending hugs back. do u reckon u could be my nanny. i dont really have any parent figures anymore as my mum passed away (as you know) and my dad decided to leave me last year. you are an absolute angel 

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    I've sent you a friend request ... I'd be honered to be a vertual nan ...  x

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