Hey liz so sorry about your mum i lost my partner she was a liz to two years in april and sometimes it feels like you do it hardly seemed very long dosnt seem such a long time but only to me .ive learned a lot on this site and one is grief is so prsonal and i cant understand how you feel because we all grieve so differently but i can empathise with you my mum and dad died some years ago and i grieved diffrently for them . So dont worry if your thinkings a bit off its funny isnt it the world goes back to normal but we are still hurting and six months is not long so dont worry time is a healer a platitude i know but its true ime much further along than you what i did was get counciling from local hospice joined a support group in my case a social group as my partner was my best friend and we didnt realy need anyone and my go to persons gone .. you have a long road to go but eventualy you will come to terms with your loss we all seem to do even thoe its agony at first .my sympathys to you all you can do is just take it steady avoid stress if you can as it creates anxiaty you will be pretty delicate at this time but it gets easier and you do get your emotional strengh back . Regards Paul