Your welcome Jeremy its dammed hard but it dosnt rain every day and one day the sun will come out may not be as bright as it was but it does come ime certain we will see the love of our lives again but not just yet eh just one day at a time my friend .p

Thanks for your kind words P.

All the best Jeremy

Hi, I know how u feel too, I am losing my husband at the moment to oesophagus cancer which has gone to liver and now wrapped its nasty little self round his organs, its determined to eat him up, hes 44 and we have 2 girls, they say he has 3 or 4 weeks at most left. We are in NZ and system even worse here, he needed a drug not funded here ( but is in UK). By the time I had researched and found out about it and had him privately tested and started it also private ($4100 every 3 weeks), 6 months had slipped by and it was too late, didnt work. I believe if we were still living in UK he would have started it straight away and have had alot longer with us, system really sucks bigtime and have never felt oncologist was doing everything she could though I asked her so many times and said we would move back to UK she said there was no point, now I know better and we will always wonder "what if" but it's too late for him and they get away with it, hes just another statistic on their chart to them but not to me and my girls...how old are your boys? My two are 8 and 12, so tragic isn't it, we are all suffering big time. He is in hospice at the moment  but we are hoping to bring him home  next week when pain meds stabilized, all they will do for him now.

I'd love to say something to ease your pain but I can't just cherish every second and try to keep it together talking does help it did for me

Brett