I'm so very sorry to hear what your going through its such early days but the pain will ease and you will see a light at the end of the dark tunnel I promise you. You mentioned your pending marriage? Follow your heart and don't let people pressure you you're grieving and they need to respect that think of what dad would want you to do?? When I lost my dad the funeral director gave us all the chance to a pendant with his fingerprint on it! maybe you could do that??as a way for your dad to be a part of your wedding??your love for your dad will be eternal he will be with you on your special day in spirit heart and mind do what is right for you and whatever your decision everyone will understand hope all goes well for your big day the hurt will ease given time all the best of wishes

Hi ive been on this site quite a lot over nearly two years and ive learned a lot about how it effects people sepsis took my partner quick god what shock and ive lost mum and dad some time ago but i was glad my liz went quick because it can be a horrible painful way to go  it does hurt but  not forever . Your wedding could be just the thing for you and your poor mum your poor mum will be feeling so lost and i mean lost its like the life you knew and was so comfortable in like a coccoon of love has suddenly vanished so your wedding lets just say may just keep her going . Your just starting out and this wedding is going to be one of the most wonderful times of your life and it will keep you going to althoe tingged with a bit of sadness if you cancel all it will do  is add to your pain your dad will probably see you walking down the isle because from what ive experianced our body's die but the energy that is us hangs around to make sure everyones ok then they move on .but this is my oppinion and july is a way away yet your all still going to be hurting but some of the pain will have gone maybe have a special toast for your dad telling how wonderful he was that may hurt so maybe write it out and ask the best man or family member then at least he will be there in spirit and not be forgotten on your big day make your mum feel better if not a bit choked up but it will go ime so sorry your going through this at such a young age it is so unfair but cancer has no fairness best wishs paul ps would love to know how you get on and so will all the ones that have read your post ime sure of that also theres t thing called broken heart syndrome so maybe get your gp to check her out just to make sure shes ok have a look on the web its not made up probably a lot of gps have never heard of it buts its real but they can sort it its your heart can be effected by all the stressers released