Hi just be with your mum as much as you can tell her you love her and thank her not much else you can do say what you need to say nothing left unsaid as the what ifs will make loosing your mum so much worse .just be strong a little bit longer you will cope we humans do just try and take this an hour at a time your so young its so unfair but this rotton disease takes the best your poor .mum or the worst pity it disnt just take the bad just hold on if your brothers on the spectrum he cant help it just stick together he will be hurting to even if he dosnt understand or in denial .you could go to your gp they can do things short term to help anxiaty which is what we suffer from at these times theres also the samartians just a quick chat can level u out a bit sometimes thats all we need they did for me you will not be alone have you no close friends ???  .paul

I have close friends who are supportive but haven't been through similar situations so don't truly understand. I don't want anyone to worry about me so keep everything bottled up. I tell my mum everything she is my closest friend. I love my mum more than anyone and am unsure if/how to live without her. I am taking each day as it comes but filled with so much stress/pain/anxiety, I know I am not alone in this situation but feel totally alone. Thank you for your kind words and reply. 

Your wellcome i was struggling with a bit of anxiaty the gp just helped me out with something it realy helped let it all out dont hold it in if your friends ask if your ok tell them your struggling if they dont know they cant help i used to keep things in but its i prison realy we put walls round to protect ourselves then we cant get out have a word with gp you dont have to suffer any more than you need to .p

Hi Beth0307,

I'm so sorry to read about what you're going through at the moment. Paul has given you some great advice but I just wanted to add that we're always here for support and while I can certainly understand you feeling alone, you'll always find support here on this forum, and I know there will be others here who have been through - or are going through - something similar.

As Paul said, if you want to chat to any professionals about this who can offer valuable support, Samaritans are available any time on 116 123.

Wishing you all the best,

Ben
Cancer Chat Moderator