It's two years today..

Two years ago today my mum passed from esophageal cancer.. I was pregnant with my son at the time so I just avoided grieving.. I put all of my time into my pregnancy and my now son that I dont even know if I've grieved.. I dont even know what that means I feel so lost I just want to be with her I guess I'm just writing this to let out but this feeling I just want to scream I feel like I'm suffocating please help me 

  • Hi, 

    I lost my dad to the same in March 2019, his first grandchild came along 2 weeks after we buried him. 
    I am the same, my son has been the most precious gift and an amazing distraction for everyone, but like you I have put all my energy in to him. 
    I do think about my dad everyday, but the days have just passed so quickly. Some times it hits me like a tonne of bricks out of no where and I hysterically cry, is that grieving? I just don't know? 
    Have you seen a counsellor? I haven't as I still maintain a counsellor is trained and will help you through, but how could they possibly understand unless they have felt this grief alongside other factors like having a baby so close?