So... my mum recently past (14/11/19) she had stage 4 brain tumor, she was 64 well, active, young before her years She worked but since moving we noticed she started to change me and my brothers though she maybe having a mental breakdown as she had come out off a long relationship,had to sell her house and move 1 and a half hours away from an area she had lived since she was 14, at the end of october she went to stay with my brother as she started behaving even stranger my brother picked her up on the sat and by the sunday we were discussing taking her to the drs to get her checked out and see if they could help with her anxiety, my brother noticed mum had become wobbly on her feet so they went drs monday morning who sent them straight to the hospital for an mri scan for a suspected stroke, we were told monday they had found a tumor and was going to do a ct and full body mri to see what we were dealing with.

i went and saw mum tuesday and she was confused kept crying and laughing but didnt fully take in the  situation she had thought she had been in the hospital for 3 months, the day after she wasnt really talking on thurs 31 we got the news that it was untreatable and she would have months to live, by the weekend she was hard to wake refused to eat and staring into space, not talking. By monday she was unresponsive and stayed that way for 11 days when she passed.

I don't know how to cope or deal with this, my time is taken up with my 9week old baby boy and i feel normal most of the time other than emotionally eating, i seem to have a constant empty feeling inside and have noticed im eating to feel it but it doesnt work and i just can't seem to stop. I have random low moments usually at night time where i fill full of anger not for the things i didnt do, but im angry at myself because i want to bring her back, but i can't. i just don't feel like ive taken it in, my dad passed last year and i grieved straight away, and it annoys me as me and my mum where closer, we spoke every few days and i was visiting weekly, i should be crying all the time, feeling low not carrying on like nothings happened is this  even normal??? I feel like im letting my mum down for not crying or reacting correctly, i don't know if i should go to the drs for help or wait and see until after the funeral monday.

Any help and advice would be greatly appreciated 

Kaylee