Hi Honey104

I'm very sorry about your dad. I recently lost my dad too in September two days after my birthday. Being a teenager is hard enough without having to go through losing your parent aswell. You were so brave to get through it all and I know that your dad is so so proud of you for that ! It's completely normal to be on auto pilot, i also feel like I'm just stepping through life not really feeling anything, just going through the motions and it's hard to get on with friends because they just move on and forget that the pain for you is still very real. The advice I'm going to give is don't isolate your family. My mum and me always use to fight and I always felt my dad just understood me as we were one in the same, but I soon realised that my mum had two broken hearts, one of them watching her kids lose their dad and the other one watching her ex husband pass away. Your mum will be grieving in her own ways and you two need each other now more than ever. It can also be good to talk to someone who's not family, just to be able to express what you're really feeling without feeling scared they'll be worried about you. Cancer Research and Macmillan offer great over the phone support if you just want a chat ! 
 

Just know that wherever your dad is,  he will always be proud of you and never be disappointed ! 

Oh bless you hun, all I can say is honour your dad's memory get back into education, meet with friends and learn to let go hun, try and build bridges with your mum who no doubt is suffering also, be each others rock in time when your heart begins to heal you will be able to smile at beautiful memories you have of your dad time is a great healer hun xxx 

Hi so so sorry about your dad i was closer to my dad i think i lost my way a bit when dad passed. Its like a giant full stop on your life and your mum will be suffering to in a diffrent way .maybe go to the college have a word with them see what they can do to help perhaps you and your mum could arrange some counciling ime a dad and i would want my children to carry on not withdraw from life just sa your dad would want he'll be watching over you i dont think we ever die just our bodies wear out have a chat on a night out loud in your room tell him what your up to .i lost my partner 1.5 years ago and i still talk out loud to her just try and get out a bit more with your friends and family no one loves you more than than your mum and dad they made you after all maybe chat to your mum eh about how you feel talking is the best way to get through this .paul