Hi there, I'm so sorry for your loss!! I've just lost my mum on Saturday to cancer suddenly and I honestly don't know what I'm going to do I don't even feel I have the strength making it to 8 months so well done on you for that. I feel scared of that too at night is when I overthink things I'm still in shock right now and got so much to sort out so don't think I've had proper time to face it yet. I feel though just keeping busy is good. I was giving up on Christmas but I have a 3 year old so I have to do it for him and keep a brave face on to make it the best for him. I know they will always be watching us and just think of all good memories to make you laugh and smile. I'm sorry I'm probably not much help and only just joined this forum but I thought I'd message and try give you some kind of support. Don't hold on your pain just let it all out if you need to cry do it no matter where you are xXx

Awww hi Aimee 

Bless you and hugs in your time of need. I remember those early days like yesterday. I came to this forum when I was suspicious my dad had cancer, then it just went so fast, just a couple of weeks before he died. I feel for you. I cane back once or twice to thank people who were here for me. They truly know our pain. I haven't been back for a few months, but the last few days I've felt unbearable with pain. Can't show it to my children as it upsets them. So came back tonight. It really is a place you can speak how you feel and know that people understand without you having to sugar coat it. I'm so sorry to hear you have just gone through this awful thing too. Yes remember the good times xx I know my dad won't want me to hurt, but, I hurt night times are worst. I know what it's like to have to stay strong for family. Take each day as it comes. We are all here together holding virtual hands to help us through with love xxxxx Thankyou for being here tonight

Awww hi Aimee 

Bless you and hugs in your time of need. I remember those early days like yesterday. I came to this forum when I was suspicious my dad had cancer, then it just went so fast, just a couple of weeks before he died. I feel for you. I cane back once or twice to thank people who were here for me. They truly know our pain. I haven't been back for a few months, but the last few days I've felt unbearable with pain. Can't show it to my children as it upsets them. So came back tonight. It really is a place you can speak how you feel and know that people understand without you having to sugar coat it. I'm so sorry to hear you have just gone through this awful thing too. Yes remember the good times xx I know my dad won't want me to hurt, but, I hurt night times are worst. I know what it's like to have to stay strong for family. Take each day as it comes. We are all here together holding virtual hands to help us through with love xxxxx Thankyou for being here tonight

I know how you feel, I lost my mum who was also one of my best friends. 

Awww Have you Kindke xxx 

I feel for you

i imagine you have ok days 

good days 

and then the just plain awful long suffering days. 
To help me I close my eyes and pretend I'm in my dads living room chatting with him like we used too, it makes me feel better. Maybe you could try that xxxx 

They wouldn't want us to suffer and hurt ( even though we still do ) xxx hugs