Hi I'm posting for the first time I lost my best friend and soulmate of 40 years in March of primary liver cancer His passing was so sudden and even through we knew he was dying it really was not expected that soon He died in my arms at home He had signed a DNR form and it took everything I had not to try to keep him with me I'm a nurse Since his passing I'm totally devastated we spent every day all day together for many years he was my everything I'm sitting here blinded by tears with my heart broken and can't seem to get past this feeling I have two beautiful sons and two gorgeous grandsons they don't live nearby but keep in touch all the time but I feel so so alone Things seem to be getting harder not easier He was the love of my life I don't know what to do