Hi everyone I'm Shore an 18 year old girl whose mother just died this september, she had stage four lung cancer and battled it the best she could for me and my brothers sake and throughout it all she never moaned or groaned and just went by making the best of a bad situation. Since her passing I haven't been coping very well, I have very severe anxiety and my mum was the one who understood all of it, I'm always terrible at communicating my feelings so everytime i'd use a coping mechanism instead of expressing my feelings she'd understand where no one else would, she would always be the one to fight for my corner and we had a great bond because she understood me where no one else could. These days its getting harder and harder to get out of bed, it's like i've completely lost motivation to do anything at all and in turn my mental health and health overall are suffering because of it, I'd like to try counselling again but my family are so busy these days it would be so hard to try and organise it, and i'd like to organise things myself only my anxiety is so bad I can't even make a simple phone call which limits me alot as I know I need alot done but can't even get the first hurdle of a stupid phone call, I've reached out to some family members but they're mostly busy trying to sort other things as my mums death is still very raw.
Thank you for reading, I just needed to get this off my chest.