Hi there ...

I'm really sorry you lost your dad, esp being so young ..

There is a thread on here, about "signs from loved ones" if you can find it, you'll see your not alone .. l was dreading my mum's funeral, I'd never been to one before .. and was scared I'd "loose it" .. but on the day had a amazing warm feeling, like mum was saying , I'm not there, I'm right here beside you ..

And over the years had many many signs , the last being when I was diagnosed with cancer,  I found feathers everywhere daily  , esp in my bra.. had my masectomy...the day I got the news it was low risk and no lymph node effected,  they stopped .. thats just one thing , many more along the way ..but I've found they only come along when I didn't look for them ...

So you can bet he's around you, making sure your o.k .. and really proud of his girl ... just look in the mirror... he's right there, you are half of him .. he's now tucked up safely in your heart... take him along there on your journey through life.... 

Sending you a vertual hug... Chrissie x

I'm sorry to hear the loss of your mum.

Thank you ever so much for your reply x

Im ever so glad that its just not be having these "signs" as it makes me think how can all these different people say they have these signs and not be real. Makes me think like you said "he's right there beside me" 

big virtual hug back xx

3 weeks is very early days, must be so  hard to study just now, it does take time for your dad not to be the first thing you think of when you wake up, but you do get there in time.  I still talk to my mum and dad and update them on latest news as I feel they are still here with me.  Take care Xxx

I'm very sorry for your loss. It may turn out to be a strength in your PhD journey that gives you perspective, not a weakness. You know there are more important things in life :) That being said take care and don't push yourself too hard

Thank you for all your kind replies. I will be deffinatly be updating him on my daily findings with this pHD and my life in general. I don't feel as though he has left me and my family. Just hope all the signs are true. 

Hi young man ive had some amazing things happen that are truely inexplicable like criss  said there are to many people .aachams rezer said genraly the simplest answer is the right one  If your doing a phd you know that our bodys wear out but the energy that runs tt is there till the end of time the thing is theres  things go on in this word we will never understand or are ment to yes have a look at that post that crissie mentioned .it was put on by serhapine8 you may find it a great comfort ime a real lodgical guy and i thought we die and thats it i dont now and ime not talking religeon . But i supose it could be loosly called our soul .but  its all early for you  whatever you think or feel is the right thing for its all normal. ime sorry your going through this when you need to be concentrating .best wishs paul

Hi Paul,

thank you for your kind words. I think you are right. I think we do have a soul, I mean how can you love and hate .. I think all that love hate emotions goes with a person after their body has decided to pack in. 
 

I feel I am too young for all this and would love to turn back the clock and see my healthy Dad. The Dad who said he would give me away at my wedding some day and to be there when I have a child of my own. I suppose all this goes without saying and I now realise it's not just me who is feeling like this. I feel even selfish writing how I feel where I know there are people suffering with this emotions in silence... shannan

Hi dont feel selfish at all i understand this rotton disease robs us of so many things its so unfair but if theres tny consolation he will be around you for a while love the strongest of emotions only humans have it death of our physical bodys only stops us seeing our loved ones doesnt mean there not around to see your ok its the one question that we all have eventualy we all get to to know but it will be a long time for yourself youve a life ahead of you to enjoy thats what us dads want our kids to have that we do know keep your chin up as best yyou can eh .paul

Hi sorry to hear about your dad, my son age 18 and daughter age 16 have just lost their dad too same thing lung cancer and infection in lung was only diagnosed in June and passed away in early September. My son was just about to start Uni in which he still carried on as this is what his dad would have wanted him to do just like your dad would want you to keep studying for a PHD I know it will be hard but it will take your mind of things if you keep yourself busy . My daughter is trying to do her GCSEs in which she has been going back to school . Tough times ahead but try and be focused life must carry on and take it day by day ,still early days as it is for us . Yes and I had the white feathers keep appearing a week after he passed away but have stoped now . Keep strong thinking of you 

Gemma