Hi

Im so sorry for your loss. I lost my mum to brain tumour in June, she was 63. Cancer of the brain is so vicious it takes the person from you twice, before they die and after.  I cant comprehend what it must be like for you and your children, I am so so sorry.  I just wanted you to know your not alone. Unless you have lived it, you cant comprehend the magnitude of fear and despair that brain cancer brings.  

My mum was fine one day then unable to look after herself the next with debilitating headaches, dizziness, seizures and just a general not fully functioning.  I have a son who is twelve also, its such a rough age for them to deal with loss... I have twin boys who are 9 also, we lost my dad May 2018 and mum June 2019 so its been a horrible couple of years.  

I feel quite traumatised by my mums decline, I left my job and slept at her house every day from her becoming ill, I stayed with her every day and only saw my children at morning for school run and evening until husband got home... she was my everything and I cant still absorb whats happened.

So how you must be feeling I cant imagine... I hope you can draw strength from your children, I wouldnt of made it without mine... they get you through and make you have a purpose and reason to smile.  Its ok to not be ok... I am sending all my love and healing vibes to you.  

There are no words, he was too young, and its not fair.

Lots of love