Hi so sorry you lost your brother grief as awfull you did the right thing to get counciling the strongest of us need help from time to it realy got to me when i lost my partner and i like you are the ones people ring for help .but i can tell you now it dosnt allways work the other way you find people you would never think would be there for you are and close friends and familie let you down your not alone in this many on here have come across the dilemma your facing we make excuses for them but i didnt i told half of em to clear off even some of my siblings theres no reason or excuse they can make that makes it ok to be like that but you need to realy think before you do or say anything because its been no time at all for you it actually gets worse before it starts to ease and your no where there yet its a lonely road is grief i can tell you but it does get eisier you never realy get over it but it stops hurting you have done a start with counciling ime not trying to patronise you just tell it how it is or what i did i never lost a brother so ime not going to say i know how you feel .all you can do is just take a day at a time but it will get eisier and you will not fall apart but i its going to take time this bloo.dy disease is a monster i  if where human it would be the devil just make sure you dont neglect yourself and dont drink its ok for a while then makes it worse .paul

Thank you for your reply. It is a horrible decease and memories of the decease that you would rather not remember. Yes your right to say just to take day by day and yes that's easier said than done. It's comforting to know that I'm not alone, and maybe people reading my posts and your yours, will also realise they to are not alone.

once again thank you!