I’m crying as I’m writing this my dad was diognosed with non Hodgkin lymphoma B cell cancer back in 2016 just after Christmas.As a family we helped him through on a daily basis looking after him cooking cleaning supporting him threw his chemo radiation.However reality is now starting to truly hit us we thought we had done hope but the doctors have just told us that he has not not responded two the last two chemo we have given him and so it’s not possible to take him for his car t therapy which was supposed to give us all some hope and now the cancer has spread so vicoucly everywhere and even gone to his brain so in short words they can’t really do as much now.

today the doctors are going to try a new set of drugs on him and going to try chemo again on Monday too see how his body reacts however if it doesn’t and the cancer won’t go then it basically means that’s he’s dieing.I love my dad soo soo much I can’t live without him it’s litterly killing me slowly I have kids and try to put a brave face on but I can’t I haven’t slept in days gt severe anxiety and I feel like m losing it he’s in hospital at the moment with my mum and I’m back at his house and every time I go pass his room r in garden where he loved doing bbq I would have a serious break down and start crying I love him soo much I don’t know what to do and how will I live without him.