My Mum passed away in July and I still feel like I can’t breathe every time I think of her. She had lung cancer that spread to her bones and spine, making her bedbound and we had no idea until May, despite the hospital keeping her in for 2 months. and the treatment didnt work and she passed away, not as peacefully as we had hoped. It was agony to watch as she was shouting ‘help me’ as her lungs gave out. We lost my auntie to a brain tumour 2 years ago so my poor Nan has lost two of 4 daughters and I feel like i have a responsibility to her too as well as worrying about my mums long term boyfriend. The trauma of watching Mum die is hard enough but I just dont know how to carry on without her. Christmas is a real difficult one as I love Christmas and so did my parents. I am really not sure how I will cope. My Mum was the one who hosted and did the cooking etc but my sister has offered to do it this year. I will be at my inlaws as my husband is their carer. I used to visit Mum every day and sometimes have dinner at Mums so I just feel like I am going to be so lost. I feel so lost anyway but Christmas is going to be hell. How do you cope when you lose someone that organised and looked after everything and everyone?
