Hi elsie you know grief blinking hard and at 6 months i think thats when it realy sinks home. Have you had any bereavement counciling at all having someone to talk to abaut and help understand you feeling may realy help you may a trip to gp they may help its a lonely road but it does get eisier just take one day at a time and one day you will wake up and you will not feel so bad .this resentments not healthy for you and your kids and its not there fault its cancers fault blame that rotton disese .p

Hi!

its ok to feel this way, Grief is different for everyone, however I think if it were me I’d cherish all the time in the world with my kids since you know yourself you’d love time again with your own mum, your kids will want all these lovely memories of you one day for whenever the day comes that you aren’t with them yourself. I know that seems like a really morbid thought but my mum currently has stage 4 cancer and is going through her 3rd round of chemo, I’m not too sure if it’ll work or not though yet and I’m preparing for bad news in a few months (if It works then it’s a bonus and if not I’ll have been expecting it!) I keep looking at my own young daughter and hoping I’ll be here for a very long time with her. Losing a parent or having them very ill is hard to go through when you have to care for a tiny person who doesn’t understand it all and you need time by yourself to process everything so I fully get what you mean xx