Hello how sad you have sufferd al this time it must make your life a missery .yes my elder siblings let me down i feel sorry for them now .theres a thing that causes this your not alone from some of the storys i have read people get stuck in there grief but its treatable and you may be a bit depresed althoe not being a dr or specialist i cant realy say yay or nay but theres definatly something wrong the only way you can get out of this deep dark hole your in is your dr trust me even the strongest need help but if you dont you will be stuck like this and by you comeing on here you know you need help you just have to reach down and draw that bit of strenght you have left and make a double apointment see one of the younger gps i think they havnt become to blasei about it yet also its not to late to get a bit of bereavement counciling .if your lonely there are social groups out there would wellcome you .we see people out there all ages and they seem ok and you feel your the only one whoes alone but beleive me theres an enormus amount of lonely people you know you have lots of friends out there you just havant met them yet now what a silly sounding statement but its a very true one only they are not going to knock on your door because you have to go out and find them its not hard look on the web for social groups your age give them a call and get yourself down there when i joined it was like the new guy at school in my sixtys but i kept going eventualy i started to get to know a few i go to the meals out thats nice you dont have to cook your own tea lol  and you get to talk and talking is the best therapy realy sorry your going through this but glad you came on maybe its the first day of pulling yourself up your to important to waste your life feeling this way .paul ps just rememerd its its called complicated grief syndrome yes its awfull when your young but dont think your mum is not round you .she gave you life to go out and have a happy life i lost my partner just over a year ago you know to have a loving partner is all you need forget the struggles if you have that realy you pretty much have all thats thats ant in life but see your gp whats tha alternative there isnt one 

Hello just thought i would see how your copping ?? You didnt reply have  you not found the energy to go to drs for help .paul