My lovely mum passed away 3 days ago. I’ve been on rollercoaster of emotion, literally as I could discuss and chat happily one moment and cry just the next minute. One thing that triggers me the most are my mum’s clothes. We are the same size and usually she lets me borrow her stuff, although there are some that is personal to her like underwear, fancy jackets/coats and several pyjamas that I was reluctant to wear, because at least we want border on which clothes are mine and hers.
After the funeral yesterday, there were so much stuff going on that I haven’t done my laundry yet- I ran out of pyjamas. The only thing left we’re my mum’s.
She won’t use it anymore, so it’s fine to wear hers right?
The thought hits me the most and I breakdown on spot. She won’t use it anymore. But it’s hers.
But she won’t use it anymore. I was crying, some of them are just bought from primark and my aunt bought a lot for my mum when she visited us in London. She hasn’t got the chance to wear some of them. It’s unfair. There’s so much stuff she wants to do, so much things she hasn’t done, some research project she hasn’t finished. I hate it so much.
I can’t stand looking at her things, at her clothes in particular since we used to share them, we used to fight who can wear the white blouse or the nice M&S coat today. Now it’s all mine.
I can’t continue like this. I’m thinking to sell or give them away, but they’re part of a precious memory’s with my mum. On the other hand I felt nothing but grief and anger and undeserved feelings even staring at it.
What should I do?
